* I cannot get my software to update; my time on this log may have ended sadly *

- - Current Audio Bible Book : I Chronicles, chapter 25 :
- - Audio Bible Completions : Genesis - Revelation : 8 Completions!
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- - - Repeating The Middle Books; Current Book : Isaiah 1:1 : # Repeats: 4 times
- - - Repeating The New Testament; Current Book : Matthew 1:1 : # Repeats: 6 times

- Holy Bible: Jeremiah 18:5-10 "Then the word of The LORD came to me, saying, .. At what instant I shall speak concerning a nation, and concerning a kingdom, to pluck up, and to pull down, and to destroy it; If that nation, against whom I have pronounced, turn from their evil, I will repent of the evil that I thought to do unto them. And at what instant I shall speak concerning a nation, and concerning a kingdom, to build and to plant it; If it do evil in my sight, that it obey not my voice, then I will repent of the good, wherewith I said I would benefit them."

- Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah become known before the whole earth in times of great darkness, tribulations, peril, and persecutions : without those times we would never know their Faith, only God would know ... so God allowed such times to show all of us the Faith of those three young Hebrew lads : what more is to come; is only known by God who reveals what He reveals when it is time to be revealed. - Holy Bible: Book of Daniel.


For those who want to know: I am a neurologically brain damaged disabled and handicapped US Military Veteran. I suffered severe brain trauma while on active duty. I was Honorably Med-Sep'ed and turned over to the Veteran's Administration VA for my continuing care. (If this all seems too difficult to believe, contact me directly, I've got the medical records and history to prove it, I've also got the photographs to prove it) Well, let me explain: I received the mandatory anthrax vaccine and suffered a severely adverse neurological nerve reaction to it in my brain.. then my heart and lungs stopped completely and I collapsed onto the deck and died; however, I was revived back to life but suffered severe trauma and loss of oxygen to my frontal brain causing permanent damages to my behavioral and cognitive thinking abilities.

I had to start all over at the mental age of two years old and could not walk or talk. After years and years and years of recoveries, marked by various seizures in my brain. My tomorrow is not guaranteed: I could suddenly have a very severe seizure in my brain and die at any moment; that is how severe the neurological nerve damages are inside me. *Every* moment is a Gift to me, to do some more to benefit someone else before it is all over for me.

I have retained my Gift of writing that I was born with, but, I now need hours of time and a very good proof-reading software to make comprehensive sentences. I still struggle with the cognitive thinking and operational and often social abilities of a 'child' most of the time, because of that, few people are able to be my friend; due to my mentally childish behaviors and speech patterns that I have. Getting pushed away happens so often to me that I'm 'starting' to get 'used' to it; in person and online. I hold no grudges against anyone though, I just do my very best to spread positive encouragements to others no matter how I am treated by others in person and online. So, often I spend most of my time all alone playing computer games to pass the time.

I play games such as: American Truck Simulator and World of Tanks to "exercise" my brain to make attempts to recover my thinking capacities as much as I can. My personal goal in life is to Inspire others to *never* give up no matter how much the obstacles!!

- I've also added my video link on here: it shows me in US Navy uniforms working aboard the USS John C. Stennis CVN 74 in the Persian Gulf region.

Today; I have good days and I have bad days, depending on my brain's functioning level; But good days or bad days: *every* day belongs to my Lord Yeshua HaMashiach, ( Jesus the Messiah), even though I am a stubborn, feisty, rebellious little Irishman! I Trust that everything I have learned in this school of life will benefit me as I become a better and better person; like pure gold refined in the furnace of afflictions, I become more and more pure as a caring, compassionate, human being the more that I go through in this life.

If, you really really want to hear my heart: the world forgot simple 'childish' humors and simple beauty in broken 'useless' things. The world only wants new fully functional things in it now. So without a choice and without a voice I try to keep trying to do something that might be of some benefit to someone, somehow. Because that is all I have left. The whole world doesn't want me in it anymore. But it is against my morals to self-destruct! I failed at being a successful US Soldier; and now because of that, because of my handicaps and limitations, everywhere I try to go in person and online; human social groups just push me away.

Too sad; because, I am one of the most Loyal Friends anyone could ever have, but very rare few ever want to have. I lost *everything* for a Country and a Nation that doesn't care. But I have no regrets; I'd do it all over again and give up my healthy brain again and again, because that's what I do: I Give until there's nothing else left to Give! I maintain my Morals and Loyalty to the very end… to death do I part from this world that never cared at all about me, but that I Gave *everything* for!

~ " Semper Fi " - from the Navy Guy


- - Thanks for taking the time to read : - )